Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Experience of A Lifetime!

There were no previous plans to go visit the place but the signs looked so inviting that we changed our plans and diverted the route to go visit Clayton park. The biggest attraction was the dinosaur footprints. Now, tell me seriously, which parents with small kids, would miss out on such an opportunity?

The day started like any other day, except with a lot of enthusiasm. The excitement in the car kept on building with the recalling of every known dinosaur name and facts. The kids were engaged and adrenaline was rushing with expectations. It was a good family ride.

We made a stop in a small town on the way near noon time. The staring eyes of every resident in that small town betrayed their unfamiliarity with foreigners. We might have been US citizens but our skin color, accent and manners always made us stand out in small towns. We are no strangers to stares but those stares in that small town rattled us somehow and we breathed a sigh of relief on exiting that place.

The sigh of relief was short lived. We had resumed our journey towards the destination but still could not shake off that creepy feeling. In fact, we started feeling uneasy about a lot of other intangible things. Being used to long road travels with small kids, we were accustomed to all sorts of road conditions and weathers. We had travelled jam packed with traffic and also passed areas without company for hours on stretch. Rain, storms and hurricanes...nothing had worried us the way we started feeling on that particular day.

We were going towards a national park but there was no one, and I literally mean no one on the road. We drove hour after hour and not a sign of a single living soul in sight. The vista was extremely wide with green pastures all around and the road was visible in both directions for miles and miles on stretch but no one in either direction. One often experiences such isolated travels on the great planes of America but there was a strange feel to that particular ride. Usually, one starts seeing company near tourist attractions but there was no activity at all on that route.

This phenomena became even more peculiar on entering the park itself. There was no one at the gate, in the parking lot or anywhere else we looked. Our first instinct was to get the heck out of there but then we thought about all the effort and miles traveled and decided to explore the park on our own. There were signs of directions posted everywhere, that we thought, could be easily followed to explore the park.

We left the deserted parking lot and started walking on the pathway that had the signs indicating the direction of the dinosaur footprints. We took several immediate turns following the signs. A few minutes and turns on the path and another strange experience happened. I felt chilling winds on my right side while my left side felt hot humid breeze. The contrast of the temperature gave me goosebumps and I felt a chill run down my spine. Holding my younger child's hand, I tried to catch up with my husband who was leading the way holding our other child's finger.  Still trying to catch up with him, I noticed that the path had become so narrow that two people could hardly walk side by side. Not only that, there was a deep ditch on the left side of the path. I don't remember any railing. If there was any, it might have been so low that I did not notice it. There is no other explanation that comes to my mind.

I caught up with my husband but could not walk beside him due to the narrowness of the path. By now, the clashing temperature experience was forgotten since my main concern was to keep safe on the path. My husband and I had barely started the conversation whether we should continue on the path or return when hail started to fall. All of a sudden the sky became so dark that we could barely see a few feet ahead. Meanwhile the intensity of hail increase. I'm not kidding, some of the hail was the size of mini golf balls. We could not even hear each other's voices over the screaming winds and tapping of the hail.

The main problem was how to go back. Low visibility meant that we could miss the signs that we had followed earlier and take wrong turns back. Same thing faced us while going forward. We were rooted to the spot not knowing what to do. Our full focus was trying to save our terrified kids from the hard hitting hail. We had to find a shelter but how and where?

That is when we noticed them! We saw something in that diminished visibility that we had not seen in all clarity a few minutes back. Within an arms length, we saw a family with kids that was moving in a crouched way. Somehow their manner and confidence suggested that they knew exactly what they were doing and were familiar with the area. On impulse we followed pursuit, in manner and in direction. Bending our bodies over our kids and almost doubling over like them, we blindly followed them to a picnic shed. The hail was falling like a firing squad on the roof of that shed and the howling winds were throwing those giant balls of hail inside the shed on us.

Mimicking the other family, clutching one child each in our arms and shielding our crying children with out bend over bodies, we crawled under the benches.
The storm was at its peak. The walls and roof of the shed seemed to give way any moment. The noise was deafening and at that point the chances of survival looked extremely bleak. My life flashed in front of my eyes and I seriously thought about death and the end. No one in the world knew where we were as we had changed our plans and switched routes at the spur of the moment. We had no cell phones and no contact with the rest of the world. The thought occurred of letting the video camera run so that someday, someone might come to know what happened to us. It was a thought that I could not even implement as my hands and energies were engaged in saving my children.

Then, just like it had started, the storm stopped abruptly. Again, we followed the actions of the other family as they crawled out from under the tables. We were too shook up to say a word but noticed the other family. They were an elderly couple with two small children. They appeared more like grandparents in age to those kids. Without uttering a word, the elderly couple started retreating their steps. We followed pursuit with no clue of direction. Don't know if it was out rattled nerves or storm's doing that we could not see any signs around. We just silently followed the elderly couple leading the way in front. We had heard the children with them scream during the storm under the shed but not a single sound had escaped those elderly lips.

Another turn and relief coursed through our veins on finding us in the parking lot.

Strangest of all things happened at this point. My husband and I had looked at each other with relief and joy at finding ourselves in the parking lot. When we looked back, there was no one in front of us anymore. We looked and our eyes wandered in every direction for the other family but there was no sign of them. It was as if they disappeared in thin air. There was no car in that empty parking lot except ours. No sound or trace of any human being around. We looked again and again but no results. There was a dead silence everywhere. In a hurry, with a speed we didn't know we were capable of, we changed our and our children's wet clothes and left the place.

The road was visible in both directions for miles and miles on stretch. The vista was so broad that any vehicle could have been be spotted for a very very long time and from very far distance....but there was nothing, no car or sign of anyone anywhere.

We had traveled many times in the past before that day and several times after that incident on the road, we travelled long distances and short ones too. Over the years we experienced many things and went through a lot but nothing comes closer to that day...the day we faces death in the face!

 The mystery still haunts us about that family whose voice we never heard...who appeared out of nowhere in front of us in a storm and disappeared in thin air after the storm. One thing is for sure, whoever they were, they were God sent because they saved us that day. Without them, we were lost that day. Whoever they were, they were our angels that day!

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Over Exposed

Over Exposure!

The first time I ever saw a dead body was my grandma's. It was her hand that I saw which was out of the sheet that was covering the rest of her body. I was a young college going girl but I had never seen a dead human hand before that time. The image is inscribed in my memory forever.

It was a strange experience. I felt emotions that were beyond comprehension at that time. It took me time, age and maturity to fully understand why the image was so shocking to me.

Of course, there was grief. My grandma was old and not in perfect health, still, her demise came as a surprise and a shock but there was another emotion at work when I looked at that body. It was the sense that there was no life left in that hand anymore. The emotion felt very much like a shudder. No, it was not the fear of death. Death is a reality and what I felt was the feeling of facing that reality in the face the very first time. Before that day, it was always a distant reality, heard of or seen being acted out on silver screen. Now, it was so up close that I could almost touch it....not the death itself but a body that contained it.

Years passed by....

In recent years, I have seen and still see images of dead bodies and of chopped up body pieces. Dead bodies of children, mutilated bodies of adults or blown up corpses on news channels, social media and news papers. It always give me a pause. I notice that although it pains, saddens and moves me deeply to see such images, the nature of the shudder is different. I shudder not so much on the visuals but more about the human cruelty or the pain suffered. Seeing so many images has  reduced the shocking element. My eyes have become accustomed to them, though my heart has not, but it makes me wonder if somewhere along the way, it reduces the overall compassion and concern? Is that why there is so much apathy these days? Is it because we are desensitized to human suffering and pain in general?

There is way too much exposure these days. Not just adults but children are being exposed to graphic details. They are growing up with images that give goosebumps to mature minds. These children are taking too many extremes as norms. They are being desensitized by this over exposure at a very young age. They don't get shocked very easily. They have seen too much which makes me question, "where is all this heading?".





Wednesday, October 1, 2014

ASTONISHING MOMENT

WHEN YOU STAND UP FOR YOUR VALUES & TRUTH




We were in line at the airport to board the plane after Hajj.

The Airport security man was pushing, every woman and man in line, by a harsh shove of his hand and a yell to move forward.

It was my turn when I saw my husband step forward, point a finger at the man and say,
"You better not lay a finger on her."

The man looked confused and I froze in terror.
I grew up in Saudi and had known it to be a strict police state.
Saudi authorities were notorious for throwing people in jail for anything small they found provoking. This man here, looked so rude and was already behaving rashly.

My husband is usually a very easy going man who rarely raises his voice. His reaction had caught me in total surprise. I had no clue what had overcome him. 
All these thoughts crossed my mind in a fraction of a second.
I heard my husband repeat to the man caught in shock,

"I'm telling you, you better not touch her."
My heart missed a beat. I was sure of the doom that awaited. I closed my eyes, clenched my jaws, dug the nails in my palms to get prepared for the worse.
The next minute the impossible happened.

The man stepped aside and let me and my husband pass with a silent astonishment.